Monday, July 29, 2013
The Man
I really feel like stickin it to the man today cause he's been kicking the crap out of me lately. Call it post partum, summer blues, cabin fever or whatever you will, I've been in a funk. I haven't felt "enough" in awhile. Not tall, skinny, pretty, tan, rich, fun, patient, creative, crafty, spiritual, friendly, talented, healthy, athletic enough-just to name a few. I think women go through that a lot. It's just been getting to me lately. I'm sick of reading articles, facebook rants, comments, pinterest of how everything i'm eating is going to kill me or give me cancer. I'm sick of seeing model bloggers or ig'ers with super human genes that are clones of each other taking pictures of what they wear every single day and people drooling over every piece of clothing. It's strange. Social media is strange. The world is strange. But those things are silly to fret over and I can accept that and move on. I've been noticing more and more lately that the world is becoming more black and white. You either are or aren't. You either do good or you don't. You either believe or you don't. I worry for my children daily. I try the best that I know how to protect them. I try to prioritize, count my blessings and frankly just hold on for dear life sometimes. Life throws us trials, and moments of doubt, and lots of fears. It's up to us to handle how we accept them. I'm still figuring that out. I'm grateful to be married to someone who is consistently positive and an example of how to let things go. Hopefully I'll learn that along the way. Ok, rant over now. Whew.
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I felt the same way after having Owen. It took almost a year for me to start feeling normal again. I did a detox with juicing, detox baths and hot yoga and I feel like that really helped me. As for the world, I agree. It's weird. Love you! Let me know if you want to get together sometime or maybe do another mini-reunion :)
Um, ditto! I call my version East Coast Blues. You rock. The end. Love you sis!
Amen to all of it. I've somehow miraculously escaped the postpartum blues this time around (so far) but I feel like the biggest, ugliest monster. Haha. It sounds funny to type it out but it's true. Totally understand the IG annoyance. I know so many people who post pictures with their kids every day so it seems okay but really they're just showing off their slammin outfit. Lame. Meanwhile I'm still wearing Jamie's shirts most days... Wish we could hang and talk about this in real life. :)
Agreed Abs! Come to sunshiny AZ so we can chat ;) I don't feel like its post partum but just a funk. It's too hot here so I get moody ;)
Amen! Couldn't have ranted it better myself!
Your rant made me think of this article: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/amy-morrison/motherhood_b_2271349.html?utm_hp_ref=fb&src=sp&comm_ref=false#sb=3580416b=facebook
Its good and will hopefully make you feel better. I feel like social media makes it really hard to be a mom these days. You have all these places (Facebook, Instagram, pinterest) to sit and compare yourself with other moms/women and sometimes it makes me feel inadequate. When I start to feel like that I just try really hard to stay positive and be grateful for the blessings in my life. Someone is probably looking at your pictures and feeling inadequate too so just remember everyone has things/attributes that someone else wants or is jealous of... The important thing is just to try and remember a picture or post never shows you everything about that person. Sure it may seem like their outfit may be perfect, or they may seem extra fit, or their homemade crafts better than yours but who knows what else happened it that persons day or the things in their life they might feel like they are missing or feeling sad about...
If my 2 cents matter I think you are amazing! Hope you are feeling better! And don't forget “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” and you are pretty unique and awesome and I've always been jealous of your good looks so put a smile on your face and carry on and ignore everyone else! :-)
I could have written this blog myself
Agreed! Lately I've felt the same way that I've seen some many ppl converting to eating "of the earth" and "raw" and drinking only healthy smoothies! It's like I grew up with hamburgers and french fries and it didn't kill me and it surely won't kill my kids so don't judge me if I do! It's ridiculous. I don't like feeling guilty if I want to eat a snickers. Seriously feel like ppl are so health obsessive now!!! Everything in moderation for me, and yes I should probably go to the gym more! You are beautiful Bonnie and I look up to you! :)
I'm holding on right there with ya! And I agree, Social Media is one crazy beast and can bring out the worst in you if you catch certain things on the wrong day. And it's dumb that I can let it get to me sometimes. Glad I'm not alone :) And we're in the last sizzling hot month, then 2 more hot ones, and then it will finally cool down. Easy breezy ;)
Oh Bon! I sooooo agree with all of this! It's almost like some are hell bent on making us forget who we are
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