update

i really couldn't think of a more clever title than that. my apologies. here's what's going down in the house of love my friends:
wedding plans are slowly coming along. and by slowly, i mean, it's completely out of my control and i'm being taught some serious patience. have you ever gotten married for a 2nd time? no, just me? well, let me tell you it takes some precious time to get that paperwork business right. the goal is to get married sometime in 2012. sheesh.

which just reminded me, we need to look into that whole marriage license thing. or we could be like my best friend's brother who didn't know he needed a license and everyone showed up for a wedding and it just turned out to be a party since nothing was legal. follow that by a quick drive to vegas the next day for the real day. man, that's a great story. that's why i love that family. but i digress..

i really don't want to have to plan this wedding much. for example, i got a wedding planner. does that sound like i'm j.lo or something? although, i would have to get married a 3rd time to technically be like j. lo. some days i think having a wedding planner is great and other days i'm like, what am i paying her for, i could do that! but really, i don't want to do that. my goal is to show up to my wedding and have everything look beautiful, taste great and already done for me. like j.lo does of course.

my kiddos are cute. grace is obsessed with finding a flower girl dress. i took her wedding dress shopping with me, thinking it would be a fun mother daughter experience. she really was just bored and wanted to try on dresses for her. cause after all, it's grace's day.

scott is great. i think i like him more than when i said yes. hopefully this continues. ;) he puts up with my random outbursts of impatience, tears and anxiety with such ease. he's probably wondering where his awesome girlfriend went. who knew i was such a wreck? oh, you probably did.

i've pretty much mentally checked out of work. i'm not sure why, cause i don't have another job lined up. i just wish i did. i've applied to many, many places looking for a job that's more suitable for family life. plus, those neuro patients are driving me crazy. i will be a patient on that floor soon.

i'm so grateful to be at this point in my life now. i really didn't think it would happen. my life is so stressful right now, and things keep piling up, but i'm so so happy to have someone to keep me sane. thats all for now folks!