not sure of this post's purpose...

you'd think after living in phx my whole life i would love the sun. in fact, me and the sun don't get along. maybe it stems from my naturally alabaster-like skin. from spending many summers pouting that my mother making me wear t-shirts to any swimming event, getting in trouble for trying to "tan" with my best friend, and only succeeding if my freckles merged together to form a sort-of darker pigment. all of these have scarred my  relationship with the sun. i've received one too many sunburns and ginormous freckles to forgive it. my body rejects such light. this can be displayed in my poor attempt to try and exercise under such a bright beacon. i literally shut down if i try to run in the sun. is that strange? i can run much longer distances at night. i guess it's a good thing i work nights now. i'm turning into even more of a vampire.

moving on, i started work. i'm still in orientation now so my schedule is a little screwy. but i'm working nights on the training floor now for a bit. it's going good but overwhelming of course. the first night was a big struggle to stay awake. i'm pretty sure i fell asleep while my preceptor was talking to me. not sure what was going on. the next night i worked was much better. i wasn't tired and after a boost of energy drink at 3 am, i lasted till the end of my shift. i realized the sad reality to working. there's no end in sight. at least with school i could think, i only have to do this for ______ more months/weeks/etc. then i'll be done. but now that i'm in the workforce, i gotta pull up my britches and accept this is how it will be. i'll get used to it and i daresay i might enjoy it sometimes. but being away from the kids is hard. and it always will be. but we'll make do. i'm just soooo grateful i'm able to work. and that's the end of that.