the boring stuff

so, i'm in the mood to give a real "update" about life, and i haven't done it in awhile, so keep reading only if you want to. you've been warned :)

i'm currently in my 3rd semester of school!! we're studying ob, pediatrics and a little more med/surg. (studied med/surg ALL last semester). so far, i've done my rotations in med/surg and i'm just finishing up ob next week. i've seen lots of regular births, c-sections and babies!!! so fun! my favorite by far are the babies ;) i'll have summer off of school and then in the fall, i'll be in my last semester! i'll graduate in december, take my boards and (hopefully) be able to add an RN to my name by Jan/Feb after my test! i can't believe how fast it's gone since i've been in school! my plan is to find a job wherever i can (which of course will be hard-yes, even with nurses). then eventually, i want to work my way into where i want to be (pretty sure), in the NICU w/the tiny babies.

my gracious, gracious parents have let me live with them for as long as i needed, but my plan is once i find a job, to FINALLY move out on my own. (round of applause please). i'm excited/nervous/scared/happy about it. sad truth is i've NEVER lived on my own. not even when i was married (lived w/in laws and parents)! so this will be a long time coming.  the kids ask me all the time about what their new rooms are going to look like, and what their dog's name is going to be. (i told them we can get a dog when we move). i think i made a mistake in telling them when they get older, we will finally move. mind you, this will be in like a year-year and a half. haha.

grace is doing awesome in school. i just had a parent/teacher conference in which she was in charge of telling me about all the things she has done so far in the classroom. her teacher said she is an awesome reader/writer and goes above and beyond in a lot of her schoolwork. she said she is a good role model and makes sure everyone is doing what they're supposed to do and keeps her teacher organized. i'm so proud of her. the stories she writes are so funny, and i could sit all day and read them. she's gotten more confident in writing that she never asks me how to spell things anymore. she just tries it on her own and just keeps going. this is a big improvement. she used to be such a perfectionist, she would cry if i asked her to sound a word out to spell and say she couldn't do it. i guess they don't worry about correct spelling in kindergarten, that comes later. at home, she's a little bit of a different story. she's my hardest one right now. SO emotional and she and tucker fight a whole lot more. she's getting a little more sneaky and not listening as much. getting a little stressed about what her teenage years will bring if she's already this emotional. i have a lot less patience for her than i do for tucker and i'm not sure why. maybe cause she brings so much more drama in every situation. haha. despite that, she's still a pretty big sweetheart and such a fun kid to be around.

tucker is such a funny kid. i love everything about him. the way he talks (poor kid, has a lisp like his mom), the way he annunciates things, the way he sings and dances. he's just funny. i have a soft spot for him since he's the baby. probably doesn't help that i treat him like a baby a lot too. he loves school and has made a lot of friends. i'm so happy he finally has boys to play with. he had 2 friends over the other day to play and there was a lot of "dude" flying around. it was pretty funny. one of the best parts about tucker is that he's 4 and still takes naps everyday. gotta love that. he rides his bike like a speed demon and wants to wear his lightning mcqueen light up shoes wherever we go. he's very quick to tattle tell and always claims he never does anything (mainly hitting) on "kurpose" (aka purpose). overall, he's a good kid so i think i'll keep him as long as he doesn't get any older.

last, but not least (actually it is the least to tell). i go to singles ward every other sunday, no i'm not dating anyone, in fact i hardly go on dates, it's the sad reality. BUT, that being said, i'm happy with life. i used to make my plans based on when someone comes into my life. (to be completely honest, i never thought i would actually have to finish nursing school). for a long time now, i've changed my thinking to making plans for my family, and if someone fits into them somewhere along the way, then great, but i'm not PLANNING on it, which is what i did before. i'm ok with being single, i'm confident in myself and i'm ok with being a single mom. i've done it for the past 4 years (wow, long time), and i can handle anything. yes, i wish my kids had a more complete family, but to be honest, it scares me to death of how an extra person will change what we have going already. so, for now, we are content. the kids seem happy, although i'm consistently trying to explain to them (not to mention their friends) about divorce and why their daddy doesn't live with them.  as mentioned in the previous post, tucker is more than happy to marry me just so he can have a little brother or sister. where babies come from is just an explanation for another day. and grace thinks i should get married tomorrow so if you know anyone, let me know...

wow, that's a lot of rambling. i know you're all thinking, good thing i don't do these often. here's a sticker for reading it all :)