I'm getting very impatient. I found out I did not get into the nursing program for July. This means, I could reapply for Oct. for the same program (thought I don't think I have a chance.) And if all else fails, I'm pretty sure I'll get into the traditional program (2 yrs) in January. I was expecting this because give the past, things just haven't gone my way, but I was also pretty disappointed to say the least. Why can't things happen when I want them just for once ;)
So from now on, I will try to ignore the stress in my head of MY own made up timeline of when I want to have school done, be married and have my next child. I know perfectly well that things will (or will not) happen when they're supposed to. That doesn't mean I can't still worry about it though, right? All in all, I know I'm extremely blessed, period.
I'm getting sad because Gracie's birthday is coming up, as well as my own. I'll be 24 and she'll be 4 a few weeks after. I can't believe she's getting so big, and frankly I'm not that happy about it. She's requesting Chuckie Cheese...I'm planning on bringing my own food.
Tucker, is a trip right now. He tests my patience so much and I have been known on occasion (Dusty) to have a mini meltdown because of his actions. Being the sole parent in this instance is overwhelming cause I'm out of ideas. I've done all that I could think of to do except send him to boarding school. I know the majority of his behavior is because he's the golden "2, " but it still doesn't make things ok. He's such a boy and so violent right now. He picks on Grace constantly and she has battle scars, bruises etc. all over cause of him. It doesn't help that she's kind of a drama queen about it. The best part is, he saves all his worst behavior for of course me. He doesn't hit, bite or pinch any other adult except his mama. That, is what I get blessed with. Lucky me! Through it all, I still love the little stinker to death.
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i am so with you. age 2 is like total bliss and contentment combined with the depths of hell.
Let us know when her party will be. We still haven't had our chucky cheese play date. By the way, we're way more into SYTYCD then anyone else we know! We'll have lots to talk about.
Bonnie, it's Tiff, Chantel's friend. I just wanted to say that reading this post really got to me! I can't say I know exactly how you feel, but I do feel like I know what you are talking about. Man, sometimes it just feels like everything is going wrong and nothing is working out the way I want it to. My hubby is not a member and I am constantly thinking about why things couldn't have worked out easier and gone the way it did in my mind. I wait for the day he will get baptised, we'll get sealed and the list goes on and on. I also had plans on when I was going to have kids, like how many years in between, and that didn't really work out the way that I wanted to because I was in such a different situation than I had planned on. And last but not least, we had planned on graduating this December and now it looks like we have to back that up a year and a half! We've already been going for over five years! Anyways, this is a really long comment, and I didn't want to tell you my life story. I just know that Chantel loves you so much and I can see why. You are doing such a great job and your family is so stinking cute! I think your really great and hopefully school and everything will work out for you! Sorry again for the long and I guess cheesy comment!
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